Because of the very hot summer,I was so tempted to cut my hair,but its been years since it has been this long. I just couldn't do it. My granddaughter Jalyn loves playing beauty shop and brushing my hair. My little grandson Jaxon wanted to take a picture of me, thus the picture above! My daughters have been after me to color my hair, I had rather just let it go gray naturally. They tell me over and over that I am not old. But I feel old,very old at times, and not so old at other times! I think because I started my adult life so very young at just 15 years old, keeping house,raising children, tending to the demands of a very controlling husband. Could this be why I feel older than some friends my own age or even friends older than me? Not that I regret my life, mind you. I do have a few regrets from my past,but I loved being a mother and the keeper of our home. I cherish those memories, those years spent at home with my children. God must have had a reason for having these hairs turn gray, so for now....I shall let them be. I am in a different season of my life now. I do not regret growing older. There is a spiritual gift that comes with aging, it seems so to me anyway. I can see and feel more with the spiritual aspect than when I was a younger adult. I have a much greater appreciation for so many things in life in general today, than I had years ago.Yet, my body has aged much faster than what should be normal for 54 years. While my body has grown weaker...my spirit has grown stronger. And still there are many questions I ask myself...about myself. Questions... I cannot answer for myself! Not at this time anyway....maybe in another season of my life. So what does "Aging Gracefully" or Gratefully, if you will, mean to you? To me it means accepting the natural changes in your body that come with natural aging. No covering up or hiding those changes in order to present yourself as younger than what your true age is. And in the same sense, is it wrong to appear or act older than what our age truly is ,as well? Maybe the phrase is true after all...One is only as young or as old as they feel. To be honest, I don't think I ever felt my correct age. At 15, I felt much more mature, but looking back now...I see what a child I still was, in so many ways. I learned very quick what I needed too though..I grew up fast ,but gracefully too! All my life I have felt different in some ways...being an "old soul" is how I describe this feeling, and in no way am I referring to past lives, as some persons understanding of an old soul is,because I don't believe in such. I know there are some things I need to change to benefit my body, to make it more healthier. I only pray I find my way through his way. I want to live as long as the Lord wills me too. I know he has a future for me....what that exactly is,I don't know yet. But I do know it will be good...for all that God does is good. And all that he does will work out for my good just the same.
Though thy beginning was small, thy latter end should greatly incease. Job 8:7
No,I don't mind growing older at all.
Hair that is turning white is like a crown of honor. It is found in the way of being right with God.
Proverbs 16:31 NLV
Guess,I will continue to wear my crown proudly :)
I will embrace each new day of my life as one more stepping stone toward eternity...I know my days are numbered. I pray I make each one count for God's glory.