Jun 26, 2014

Feelings


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I saw this on facebook this morning and it spoke to me. I suffer, like thousands more with chronic pain from Fibromyalgia, plus arthritis.  Achy muscles and joints always.  Some days are better, but they are few and far between!  Still, I will confess......I feel guilty at times when I don't feel up to doing what I once could do. I sometimes feel guilty when my daughter comes to clean, doing for me what I don't feel like doing myself.  Yet, I am so grateful she can and will help. She fights the pain of fibro herself, but deals with it differently than I. She doesn't allow the pain to rule her life. I am trying!  I don't understand this strange disease, even many doctors don't recognize  this as a disease.  They can come up with reasons to explain it away.  Making someone feel crazy, in a sense of the word. At least that has been my experience. I have even been told that most all my pain stems from the weight I carry, or that I may be hiding some unforgiving feelings in my heart toward someone, that was suggested to me by a well meaning Christian sister.  All I know is that I hurt! Whatever the reason, I just have to trust my Lord.  He knows all, he sees all, he is so aware of me. What I need, and when the best time for that need is to be met, if I suffer for some good than so be it!

To let you know dear friends, I won't be able to have the Bariatric surgery at this time. The Psychologist that tested me stated that I am to have some psychological counseling before I am deemed fit for this surgery. So that is where I am at with that news. I don't really enjoy these types of posts, but sometimes sharing helps.  Blessings my sweet friends

12 comments:

Twyla and Lindsey said...

Shelley, I understand your fibromyalgia pain. I have been praying for you every day and I am sorry your surgery will be delayed. It is in God's hands and His timing will be perfect. Blessings and peace to you today. Love, Twyla

Valerie said...

Dear Shelley,
I have fibro too. It is a terrible thing to have to suffer with. Sending you gentle friendship hugs and lots of prayers. I hope you feel better soon! Blessings and sunshine, Valerie

Deb said...

Prayers for you, Shelley. I have bad arthritis so I do understand pain. I also have some Fibro symptoms so I can relate to what you describe. Prayers coming your way. Be sure to choose a good Christian counselor to help you get ready for your surgery. Hugs from Arizona.

Michelle-ozark crafter said...

For me it is frustrating that I can no longer keep my home as clean as I like and that I have to sit more than I like but I am working on accepting it. Now I realize I will need to use an electric cart to ride in to grocery shop and that is not easy for me to give into.

The BUTT'RY and BOOK'RY said...

Dearest Shelley,
It is very tough to face every day with such pain, sometimes it takes such an exhausting toll physically and mentally, but even so, in the midst of it all you still have a good outlook and faith! We will pray for that surgery, and also for all of each other's pain (I have rheumatoid arthritis and degenerative spine) Sending you warm hugs and blessings and PRAYERS, Linnie

susie @ persimmon moon cottage said...

Dear Shelley,
I believe that the delay in your surgery is a part of God's plan for you. I am sorry that you are in such pain. I am keeping you in my prayers.

Take care,
Susie

Georgene G. said...

Thank you for posting on my blog, Shelley. I'm sorry that you are suffering in pain. I am learning from posts like yours how to NOT be a 'Jobs comforter'. I'm thankful to hear that you are finding comfort in the Lord alone.

Denise said...

That does not mean it's over Shelly,just one more little thing they want You to do.If You had had Kaiser,You would have had to have 3 months of classes and from beginning to end it take a year,that's with Kaiser and yes,Kaiser makes You go through psych stuff too.You are young for starting the process.I didn't even start until I was 59,had the surg. at 60.Keep Your chin up girl.We all love You-Denise PS God, You know, cares about Your pain

Sew Blessed Maw [Judy] said...

Praying for you my sweet friend.. So sorry for your pain.. Praying for the surgery, when it is right for you.. I pray God be with you and help you in your day to day life.. Hugs.

Karen Andreola said...

Dear Shelley,
I sympathize with how chronic pain limits your life. It can be discouraging and sad, when you try for years, the recommendations given by doctors, promoted in health articles, advised by caring friends, but relief is not found. One of my long-distance friends is a physical therapist. Her wisdom has kept me moving.
I feel the same - that it doesn't feel "as polite" to share pain as it does other topics. But, It is encouraging to meet Christians, like yourself, who, although they live with chronic pain, still love Jesus.
Hugs,
Karen A.

Barbara Neubeck said...

... Shelley, I'm sorry to hear about your struggle with Fibro...... it can affect us in so many ways apart from pain...
Prayers for you...
Hugs and Blessings,
Barb xxx

marie said...

Shelley...chronic pain is so difficult to deal with. I'm praying He fills you with peace, comfort, and joy in the midst of the pain. I truly hope it does help to share...that's such a wonderful thing about our blogs. Being able to share with those who have come to care!